Thank You for 2014, What’s Up 2015?

2014 was one of the best years of my so far, very short life. I turned 18 that year and for the first time, made real and true friends. 2014 was the year of the friends. The year is sort of a blur up until August 17th when I left home for college and since then, I have been the happiest I’ve ever been. There were many many points in my life where I felt I would never be this happy, times when I was so low that I didn’t think it was even possible for me to experience the joy I feel when I’m at school. 

I need to give credit to the time pre-CNU. I applied to schools this year, was rejected by VCUarts, but then contacted directly from the throwers coach at CNU when I was accepted into CNU, a place that is now my true home.

Once I chose to go to CNU, senior year became a blur of track meets and goals I needed to reach. I had my best performances in 2014 in all of my events. There are a few meets I remember in specific that really highlight my career as a track athlete. The first time I hit 120 was a stunning day at UVA and when I won Discus at Regionals really stand out to me. I qualified for Nationals, both indoor and outdoor, which was a goal of mine since I was a sophomore. I feel so much pride when  I wear my Nationals backpacks. 

I ended High School with middle fingers ablaze as I left. How the end of my season was treated by the high school track coaches left me with zero respect for either of them and the entire school as a whole. I never want to step foot into that high school again. I owe them nothing.

I spent my summer basically dreaming of CNU, I couldn’t wait to be there already.

My first semester of college went amazing. I made loads of fantastic friends that I can now call on for anything. This is something I never had in my life and honestly, its hard to see all the kids I went to high school with hang out with each other when my friends are in completely different parts of the state. But I go back home on the 3rd to start January camp the 4th and classes start the 7th. 

I killed my grades this semester. I ended with a 3.6 GPA and was on the deans list. For me, this matters so much because I never had these kinds of grades in high school. At times I was scared I wouldn’t be ok in college, maybe I was just stupid. But that GPA and all the work I put into it this past semester proves all those doubts wrong. 

I’m happy. Completely and utterly happy with my situation at CNU. This doesn’t mean that I don’t have goals for improvement (resolutions, you will), because 2014 was great, but 2015 can be better.

1. Run. I know this was on my list last year, but this time I’m dedicated to make it work. I’ll start out slow as many times as week as I can. I’m aiming for everyday in the mornings. It’s already scheduled in and I can make it work. My weight needs to be better and running will help me tremendously. 
2. Clean eating. Working with my diet by cutting out breads and processed foods will do wonders for me and I’m excited for that. I want to be strict with myself and use self control to be healthier and happier.
3. Blog more.
4. Finish re-reading the damn Harry Potter books.
5. Love myself more. I did a really good job in 2014 of being better to myself but I believe that needs to be continued
6. Be Fearless. This was a resolution last year and it is still something I need to work on. I get scared and I become afraid to do things. I still set myself to high standards and I'm really hard on myself when I don't meet my standards. I will work on being fearless and owning it. 

2015 will be the year of body positivity and self improvement. 

{5/12} The Update: More like the up-LATE

It's almost the end of my Junior year, which means a lot of things.

• For starters, I have my AP Us History exam on Wednesday. I need to score at least a 3 to get actual college credit, so that's sort of a big deal.
• I'm nearing the start of post season for track. I'm not sure if I ever mentioned that I came back. Well I'm back and going strong. It was the right decision to have left when i did and it was the right decision to come back. I've improved so much this year, region qualifying on Friday. My goal is to place in states. 
• I have my first Prom night on the 25th. my dress is fantastic (and so was the price.) I have no definite plans for the night, but the group I'm going with will figure out something. It's important to not make the Prom into anything that it's not. Basically, it's a night where I can get into a dress and dance my ass off. Anything after that is just a bonus.
• SAT on the June 1st. I'm sure I'll retake this but I'm pretty confident. I scored fairly well on my PSAT and that was with minimal studying, so I picked up an SAT book from the Mercy House. I'll start studying after the APUSH exam. This test is a very important part of getting into college. Yay.
• June 7th, I will no longer be an underclassman. And that is when I start my year long video project, documenting my senior year of high school. With this project, I will make a video a week just about my life.
• The Yearbook has to be finished. Oh Lord.
• A piece of really excited news that I was going to talk about originally is that I leave for Belgium, France, and Switzerland on June 10th for 9 days. Going over-seas is a dream of mine, especially going to Paris (as the readers of my blog would know.) Basically, my parents kick major ass. Their will be so many pictures and travel journals I'll post after the trip.
• A few days after I get back into the country, I'll be heading to Branson, Missouri for this extended family gathering of sorts. Basically, I get to stay in this nice lodge for a week, reading, updating my blog, and hanging in my eno. It should be a nice, relaxing time. Plus, this lodge they're renting is pretty big, meaning plenty of places for me to hide. :)

Though I feel I'll be relieved that the end of this school year will come to a close, I know it's just the beginning. 

Until next time,

Lillie

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Week 7!

Just to let you know, I didn't die while on a treadmill or anything. I've been lazy. And only lazy about posting blogs. In excited news: on the 18th, I will have officially been tracking my weight on Livestrong for a month, meaning that as of now, I have lost 16 pounds. My pants hardly fit in my ass area, stomach fat is hanging off it awkward ways, and I'm kind of loving it all. I still have to lose more weight but it's great start. I don't use Livestrong to calculate calories anymore. I just kind of wing it. Hopefully when I get a smarthphone, I'll use Livestrong all the time.

Enough with my weight loss, even though it's exciting, I get tired of talking about it all the time.

Exciting thing #1

I've been doing behind the wheel driving for school, and it's going very well. I actually drove around town yesterday for a couple hours. It was great and that says a lot because my mom freaks out when other people are driving. She would damn near scream when I would be getting to close to the white line, and I hated that because I would think it was something bigger. Overall, it was a good experience.

Exciting thing #2

Yesterday was full of great things. I went to my favorite vegetarian restaurant, ate my favorite vegan cookie, drove, bought a jar of local honey, and went to this church auction thing to benefit this local retirement community. Some of the pieces they auctioned off where down right gorgeous. But in the large room next to the auction, the church set up a resale shop. I ended up getting some awesome vintage pieces. A pair of earrings, a bow pin (not vintage), and beautiful head scarf with roses, and a vintage Coach satchel. I loved it when I picked it up, but when my mom was telling me it was leather, I was kind of put off to buy it. Feeling bad, my mom looked inside of it and saw that it was coach. Stamped and everything with its own serial number. I love it because it is such a perfect size. I can fit loads of things in it, even my kindle! And to think I was planning on studding the front with circle brass studs. Not anymore.

Exciting thing #3

                Best for last.

                I will be going to New York for my birthday. I am literally SCREAMING. They told me a week or two ago and it’s amazing. We will leave at 1pm on the 27^th so I get all of Friday, Saturday, and a little bit of Sunday morning. I’ve been making a list of things I want to do but there are just some many places and it’s hard to make an entire list. I’m dying for some good thrift stores. So we will see. I’ll have a huge post full of pictures and things to show from that trip.

School has been going alright. I love yearbook. Apush is just pointless. And I feel like I’m understanding math. A great thing about being part of yearbook is that I get to be involved in everything in school. At our school, we have a wall. That we paint. I went to take pictures and it was great. I got to hang out with a bunch of great people, got a little messy, and took some hella fabulous pictures. I can be a little antisocial at times because I’ve felt that I don’t have a lot of close friends, but this year, I’m going to make an effort to be close to these people who were in my class. We are already good friends and love each other. But I want to have the friendship where I can go to their house and hangout whenever, and they can do the same with me. That kind of relationship with people would be amazing.

      Expect a New York post within a few weeks after I go. I’ll try to be more regular with my posting. And maybe I can even do a review or two. Who really knows where I’m taking this blog. It’s a lot of fun to do though.

I’m still trying to figure out an outro

Lillie

Week 4: Mid week

I feel like I'm just going to assume I'm still losing weight. I always weigh myself in the morning but with school and the lack of motivation and time to get on the scale. So as of now, I really wouldn't tell you what I weigh. I just know that I'M NOT GAINING. Let us look on the bright side. :) Because it's the end of the summer, I can't eat all the kick ass fresh vegetables like I did these past 3 months from my Garden. We are starting to eat Watermelon and sweet jesus is that good. So lemme take you through what, on average, I'll eat.
Breakfast
My standard ass english muffin with egg white. I have found out that I really screw myself over when I don't eat breakfast. You tell yourself later in the day that you can eat something or more of something because you didn't have breakfast. NO. We tend to over eat when that happens. Plus I get a lot of protien and fiber from the light english muffin and the egg whites. and it's filling.
Lunch
I pack my lunch because the school lunch is Satan. Lots of terrible carbs and a school lunch really isn't suited for a Healthy Vegetarian. SO for lunch, my main dish is a half a cup of brown rice with a half a cup of black beans. It tastes so damn good. I warm it up in the morning then have it in a teachers class room till lunch. It taste better freshly warmed, but I still enjoy it. I also bring an apple and sometimes peanuts or almonds. Today I didn't, but I had some peanuts and almonds when I got back home from lifting.
Dinner.
Lately, I've been eating some fresh corn with no butter or salt. And WATERMELON. God knows what I'll eat tonight. I might make some vegetable soup! Or reheat some my mom made

On weekends, generally Saturday is my free day. But it doesn't mean I go overboard. Last saturday I had slept in, so I ate rice and beans at around 11. Maybe 10. But then at 5 or 6, I went out to my favorite Mexican place. Then afterwards I got some AMAZING Honey Badger Ice Cream (my favorite) I didn't feel bad because I hadn't eaten all that much through out the day, and I had had a really great work out week.

I'm going into week 2 of working out. Basically, I lift at my school every other day, then I throw in between on Tuesdays and Thursdays, taking Friday off. Yesterday I was having terrible allergies and was not feeling well at all, so we took a break. But today I lifted. It just means that I get to throw two days in a row. It's amazing and  I'm really excited to see my progress at the beginning of Outdoor, which is not until November. I've started to Spin in shot. It's definitely different then Discus, but it's interesting.

DOCTOR WHO COMES BACK ON SATURDAY. YEAAAAAAA BABBBBBY.
I'm addicted. I've seen all the episodes. I love Matt Smith.

I'm Re-reading Harry Potter, the UK version that is on my kindle. I'm 9% into Chamber of Secrets. Re-reading the books reminds we why it is so important in my life. Harry Potter was a huge part of my first presence on the interent. I wouldn't be me with out Harry Potter. Can anyone say #nostalgia.
I'm lame

I have school work to attend to and a 22 year old who is in Illinois that needs talking to.
x
Lillie