Week 4: Mid week

I feel like I'm just going to assume I'm still losing weight. I always weigh myself in the morning but with school and the lack of motivation and time to get on the scale. So as of now, I really wouldn't tell you what I weigh. I just know that I'M NOT GAINING. Let us look on the bright side. :) Because it's the end of the summer, I can't eat all the kick ass fresh vegetables like I did these past 3 months from my Garden. We are starting to eat Watermelon and sweet jesus is that good. So lemme take you through what, on average, I'll eat.
Breakfast
My standard ass english muffin with egg white. I have found out that I really screw myself over when I don't eat breakfast. You tell yourself later in the day that you can eat something or more of something because you didn't have breakfast. NO. We tend to over eat when that happens. Plus I get a lot of protien and fiber from the light english muffin and the egg whites. and it's filling.
Lunch
I pack my lunch because the school lunch is Satan. Lots of terrible carbs and a school lunch really isn't suited for a Healthy Vegetarian. SO for lunch, my main dish is a half a cup of brown rice with a half a cup of black beans. It tastes so damn good. I warm it up in the morning then have it in a teachers class room till lunch. It taste better freshly warmed, but I still enjoy it. I also bring an apple and sometimes peanuts or almonds. Today I didn't, but I had some peanuts and almonds when I got back home from lifting.
Dinner.
Lately, I've been eating some fresh corn with no butter or salt. And WATERMELON. God knows what I'll eat tonight. I might make some vegetable soup! Or reheat some my mom made

On weekends, generally Saturday is my free day. But it doesn't mean I go overboard. Last saturday I had slept in, so I ate rice and beans at around 11. Maybe 10. But then at 5 or 6, I went out to my favorite Mexican place. Then afterwards I got some AMAZING Honey Badger Ice Cream (my favorite) I didn't feel bad because I hadn't eaten all that much through out the day, and I had had a really great work out week.

I'm going into week 2 of working out. Basically, I lift at my school every other day, then I throw in between on Tuesdays and Thursdays, taking Friday off. Yesterday I was having terrible allergies and was not feeling well at all, so we took a break. But today I lifted. It just means that I get to throw two days in a row. It's amazing and  I'm really excited to see my progress at the beginning of Outdoor, which is not until November. I've started to Spin in shot. It's definitely different then Discus, but it's interesting.

DOCTOR WHO COMES BACK ON SATURDAY. YEAAAAAAA BABBBBBY.
I'm addicted. I've seen all the episodes. I love Matt Smith.

I'm Re-reading Harry Potter, the UK version that is on my kindle. I'm 9% into Chamber of Secrets. Re-reading the books reminds we why it is so important in my life. Harry Potter was a huge part of my first presence on the interent. I wouldn't be me with out Harry Potter. Can anyone say #nostalgia.
I'm lame

I have school work to attend to and a 22 year old who is in Illinois that needs talking to.
x
Lillie

Week 3

It's been a alright week. I've had some days where I didn't eat the best, but I have not gained any weight (Thank God) I've really tired to keep away from carbs and cheese. So let me tell you a story.
We went out to eat because my sister is moving for a year to Illinois and she decided to eat at this Italian place. It's a local place, so they didn't have a nutrition sheet. I didn't have much time to order, I have stressed out and panicked so I just ordered a veggie Calzone. I had none of the garlic knots. SO when it comes, it would have looked amazing to any one else, but because I'm on my diet I felt bad. It was cut into 4ths and I only ate 1/4th. I asked for a box immediately. I ate another 1/4th when I got home, but it tasted terrible by then. I hated myself for about 3 days. I was so frustrated that night with everyone and myself. I didn't talk through out dinner, my sister thought I was being a bitch for not. And the entire time, all I wanted to do was go home and isolate myself.
Needless to say, it was a terrible evening.

I start school tomorrow, which I was excited for until today. I'm excited for this year but I've gotten so use to being by myself all summer, I have no idea how I will handle being in class all day. My dad wants to start working out after school every day starting tomorrow, but i might ask him to hold it off a week. I need to get over the 1st week of school. I want to feel comfortable in my routine.

Hopefully I have a collective summer haul post in a few weeks. I went shopping yesterday and bought 3 pairs of jeans (which is practically unheard of for me), a tank top, shirt, and a dress. Plus loads of other stuff I've gotten this summer like all my shoes and Revlon lip butters! And I have an order from Sephora coming in any day now. I'll probably do two separate hauls then.


Hope everyone is having a good week! In the comments below or on twitter or tumblr. Let me know what the most important items you need for school (besides actual school supplies).
Until next time.
Lillie x

Back to School Wishlist

In the comments below, tell me what's on your Back to School wishlist!

Day 8

I had a bad day.
I went over my calories on Livestrong.com
I ate out.
And i didn't work out.

I am full, and though the food was amazing, I feel ashamed. But I'm not going to wallow in this. I had a bad day, so what. I can not afford to have these sort of days.

So I did alright this morning, actually. Light English muffin with free range egg white with nuts and peach. But the nuts were high in calories, and I had two serving throughout the day. Come lunch time, I didn't really eat much. I had a serving of mexican shredded cheese, a serving of club crackers, an apple, and half a serving of tostitos scoops. I couldn't find anything to eat, and it didn't feel bad at the time. When I plugged in everything in Livestrong, I realized that I had made some bad decisions.  Come 7:30 and I'm very hungry. I was in town with my dad and we ended up going to a mexican place we love. I got veggie fajitas, with veggie refried beans, and some rice. It tasted amazing. But i know I wasn't doing the right thing. So you know? I screwed up. But I just have to move on, look back on this day and use it as an example. Remember that day when you went over? And you felt so bad you wrote a blog post about it?

Tomorrow is a new day and it will be ok.
I'm actually helping out with Freshman orientation ALL DAY. SO lots of running around. I won't be eating a lot of lunch, so it will be great. And when I get home, I'll be too tired to eat! Just kidding, that is not healthy. I'll drink loads of water and I'll have a good time.

If you had a bad food day or you remember one you had, post it in the comments. I'd love to hear about it!

Till next time
Lillie x

Week 2

This feeling is crazy. I actually want to weigh myself everyday. Because i like the results. I currently weigh 225.8 pounds and I'm still going strong. I won't be working out as much as a I did this past week, and really until indoor track starts except on the weekends when I can go and use the Elliptical. Getting back into the gym was ridiculously amazing. You can not beat the feeling of doing something for YOURSELF. It is so nice to see progress. I've lost 7 pounds since July 30th, which is terribly exciting.

 Helpful tip: when eating out, ask for a nutrition sheet as your menu to help you order. I did this when I went to Olive Garden and was able to find a pasta for 310 calories, which is literally, the lowest calorie item they have. PLUS I substituted with whole wheat pasta and ordered a side of zucchini and squash. Also, it's really fun to play the guess how many calories are in what. Those little donuts things you can get as a Dessert at Olive Garden? 910 calories. Not even including the chocolate sauce which is another 210. I will never be eating those again in my life.

Other things going on in my life:

• Finished my summer assignments, I turn them in tomorrow
• Went to the Yard Crawl (huge yard sale thing) and didn't really find much, BUT I got a pair of practically new black low top converse for $5. SCORE.
• Visited my Aunt and Uncle and my Aunt gave me loads of glass for stained glass that I'm taking this semester.
• Made a really awesome crayon melt for my sister.

Insert shitty camera phone photo.

I have some other things that I might want to talk about in a blog post, but this really isn't the time.
So overall, I'm excited for my progress but I have such a long ways to go.
If there is someone who is currently trying to loose weight, please tell me in the comments, or on tumblr or even twitter. I'd love to give you encouragements and maybe we can swap reciepes.
Is that what healthy people do?
Lillie x

Day 2

Cleaning my room and trying on clothes. I officially have no jeans that fit me. My stomach had taken over. I fee like it's me against my body. I've done very well today. I had my Breakfast, and this veggie medley that my mom makes out of fresh vegetables in our garden with our homemade tomato sauce. I haven't been counting that into Livestrong, but I mean it's not a lot, little to none really. It's all extremely healthy. I'm avoiding sugar when possible. NO SWEETS. I mean, I know things are good in moderation, but I just don't want to get into the habit of eating sweets because when you eat them, you want more afterwards. So that cookie turns into five.
I just did 100 squats. Last time I did about a week ago, I literally couldn't walk for about 2 days. Hopefully, it won't be to bad, I return to the gym tomorrow. I'm kind of excited because I know I will be burning the hell out of some fat. I'm taking control of ma life, bitches.
This is frustrating though. It really is. You want quick results. Not saying I'm not patient enough to stick it out, but I just want things to happen now. To bad I have no adipose pills (Doctor Who reference)
In other news, I went to town and bought some more school supplies. I need to bust a move on my summer assignments, they are due the 13th. So, this means, I'm have to leave, to bust a move on some papers and comps! Wish me luck! :D
Ps. I have now added a widget to track my weight on my blog. It's directly from Livestrong, so when I update my weight lose, you'll see it!
Also: blogging is going to help me, I won't be blogging everyday, but I will be upadting at least once a week.
k bye

Week One

I am at a point right now, this very second, where there is nothing I want more is to be smaller. I currently weigh 231 pounds and I hate myself. I hate the way I look, I hate they way I feel, and I hate the way I can never find clothes. I look terrible. I can't even go shopping without having a break down when I get home, or even in the store. I'm stressed out and I'm tired of hating my life. I was suppose to  work out this summer. I did for two weeks then stopped. I could partially blame it on someone who was working out with us, but all in all: It was all my fault. So now, I'm on Livestrong.com with a goal of two pounds a week. This means I am allowed to eat 1269 calories per day. So far, I'm doing alright. I took a trip to West Virginia Wednesday through Friday, where I could not update. I did alright but I know having sweets killed me. So why am I writing all this? Because I have a goal. I want to weigh 180 pounds and be a size 12, or what ever size 180 pounds would let me fit into. Once track begins in November, I will be loosing more weigh and still sticking to the diet of 1269 calories a day. But I do not want to wait till November to start. So my goal is by February, which is in 7 months.
I am going to make this happen. I am going to have a hella successful track year, because I'm going to make it happen. I actually just found a inspirational tumblr for being fit, and I'm hella motivated.
I am ready.