Week IDGAF, I Think 10

Hey bitches! Well really, I think there is one bitch. Maybe this blog is jsut me talking to myself. YOLO.
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Anyway. I've been doing great. My New York Trip was splendid, expect a blog post sometime this month about it.
School has been shitty, but it's school, so honestly, what was I expecting to get? It's really just the work. I'm surrounded by a bunch of really great people but the work stresses me the hell out. I never have enough time.
My weight loss is going swell. I'm down now currently to 214.2, almost at my 20 pounds loss. I'm really happy with my progress. Before I went to New York I weighted 216 then I gained about 2 or 3 pounds because FOOD (btw: No regrets) So basically, I lost 4 pounds this week. AND I STILL GET TO EAT CHOCOLATE! I key thing about loosing weight that people need to remember is, don't deprive yourself. Just be mindful and conscience of what you are doing with your body. For example, I eat a chocolate bar that is 200 calories. I make up for it by adjusting how many calories I consume later or I make sure I work hard or do extra in my work outs to make up for it. You are distributing calories.

I've dealt with being over weight my entire life. I've gone through many times in my life where I hated myself and my image. Loosing this weight means the world to me. I am doing something for myself. I already feel better. Everyone around me can tell how much better I'm looking. It's already easier to move around. But this is only the beginning. My goal is still 170. I am still 44 pounds away from that goal. So that keeps me grounded but the fact that I've lost almost 20 pounds keeps me motivated. This week, find what keeps you grounded and motivated then write them down. Look back at it when you need that push.

Pictures and swatches are done for my upcoming ELF Haul, expect that in a week or two if not this week. Here is a little sneak peak :)

Best Wishes,
Lillie xo

Week 7!

Just to let you know, I didn't die while on a treadmill or anything. I've been lazy. And only lazy about posting blogs. In excited news: on the 18th, I will have officially been tracking my weight on Livestrong for a month, meaning that as of now, I have lost 16 pounds. My pants hardly fit in my ass area, stomach fat is hanging off it awkward ways, and I'm kind of loving it all. I still have to lose more weight but it's great start. I don't use Livestrong to calculate calories anymore. I just kind of wing it. Hopefully when I get a smarthphone, I'll use Livestrong all the time.

Enough with my weight loss, even though it's exciting, I get tired of talking about it all the time.

Exciting thing #1

I've been doing behind the wheel driving for school, and it's going very well. I actually drove around town yesterday for a couple hours. It was great and that says a lot because my mom freaks out when other people are driving. She would damn near scream when I would be getting to close to the white line, and I hated that because I would think it was something bigger. Overall, it was a good experience.

Exciting thing #2

Yesterday was full of great things. I went to my favorite vegetarian restaurant, ate my favorite vegan cookie, drove, bought a jar of local honey, and went to this church auction thing to benefit this local retirement community. Some of the pieces they auctioned off where down right gorgeous. But in the large room next to the auction, the church set up a resale shop. I ended up getting some awesome vintage pieces. A pair of earrings, a bow pin (not vintage), and beautiful head scarf with roses, and a vintage Coach satchel. I loved it when I picked it up, but when my mom was telling me it was leather, I was kind of put off to buy it. Feeling bad, my mom looked inside of it and saw that it was coach. Stamped and everything with its own serial number. I love it because it is such a perfect size. I can fit loads of things in it, even my kindle! And to think I was planning on studding the front with circle brass studs. Not anymore.

Exciting thing #3

                Best for last.

                I will be going to New York for my birthday. I am literally SCREAMING. They told me a week or two ago and it’s amazing. We will leave at 1pm on the 27^th so I get all of Friday, Saturday, and a little bit of Sunday morning. I’ve been making a list of things I want to do but there are just some many places and it’s hard to make an entire list. I’m dying for some good thrift stores. So we will see. I’ll have a huge post full of pictures and things to show from that trip.

School has been going alright. I love yearbook. Apush is just pointless. And I feel like I’m understanding math. A great thing about being part of yearbook is that I get to be involved in everything in school. At our school, we have a wall. That we paint. I went to take pictures and it was great. I got to hang out with a bunch of great people, got a little messy, and took some hella fabulous pictures. I can be a little antisocial at times because I’ve felt that I don’t have a lot of close friends, but this year, I’m going to make an effort to be close to these people who were in my class. We are already good friends and love each other. But I want to have the friendship where I can go to their house and hangout whenever, and they can do the same with me. That kind of relationship with people would be amazing.

      Expect a New York post within a few weeks after I go. I’ll try to be more regular with my posting. And maybe I can even do a review or two. Who really knows where I’m taking this blog. It’s a lot of fun to do though.

I’m still trying to figure out an outro

Lillie

Week 4: Mid week

I feel like I'm just going to assume I'm still losing weight. I always weigh myself in the morning but with school and the lack of motivation and time to get on the scale. So as of now, I really wouldn't tell you what I weigh. I just know that I'M NOT GAINING. Let us look on the bright side. :) Because it's the end of the summer, I can't eat all the kick ass fresh vegetables like I did these past 3 months from my Garden. We are starting to eat Watermelon and sweet jesus is that good. So lemme take you through what, on average, I'll eat.
Breakfast
My standard ass english muffin with egg white. I have found out that I really screw myself over when I don't eat breakfast. You tell yourself later in the day that you can eat something or more of something because you didn't have breakfast. NO. We tend to over eat when that happens. Plus I get a lot of protien and fiber from the light english muffin and the egg whites. and it's filling.
Lunch
I pack my lunch because the school lunch is Satan. Lots of terrible carbs and a school lunch really isn't suited for a Healthy Vegetarian. SO for lunch, my main dish is a half a cup of brown rice with a half a cup of black beans. It tastes so damn good. I warm it up in the morning then have it in a teachers class room till lunch. It taste better freshly warmed, but I still enjoy it. I also bring an apple and sometimes peanuts or almonds. Today I didn't, but I had some peanuts and almonds when I got back home from lifting.
Dinner.
Lately, I've been eating some fresh corn with no butter or salt. And WATERMELON. God knows what I'll eat tonight. I might make some vegetable soup! Or reheat some my mom made

On weekends, generally Saturday is my free day. But it doesn't mean I go overboard. Last saturday I had slept in, so I ate rice and beans at around 11. Maybe 10. But then at 5 or 6, I went out to my favorite Mexican place. Then afterwards I got some AMAZING Honey Badger Ice Cream (my favorite) I didn't feel bad because I hadn't eaten all that much through out the day, and I had had a really great work out week.

I'm going into week 2 of working out. Basically, I lift at my school every other day, then I throw in between on Tuesdays and Thursdays, taking Friday off. Yesterday I was having terrible allergies and was not feeling well at all, so we took a break. But today I lifted. It just means that I get to throw two days in a row. It's amazing and  I'm really excited to see my progress at the beginning of Outdoor, which is not until November. I've started to Spin in shot. It's definitely different then Discus, but it's interesting.

DOCTOR WHO COMES BACK ON SATURDAY. YEAAAAAAA BABBBBBY.
I'm addicted. I've seen all the episodes. I love Matt Smith.

I'm Re-reading Harry Potter, the UK version that is on my kindle. I'm 9% into Chamber of Secrets. Re-reading the books reminds we why it is so important in my life. Harry Potter was a huge part of my first presence on the interent. I wouldn't be me with out Harry Potter. Can anyone say #nostalgia.
I'm lame

I have school work to attend to and a 22 year old who is in Illinois that needs talking to.
x
Lillie

Week 3

It's been a alright week. I've had some days where I didn't eat the best, but I have not gained any weight (Thank God) I've really tired to keep away from carbs and cheese. So let me tell you a story.
We went out to eat because my sister is moving for a year to Illinois and she decided to eat at this Italian place. It's a local place, so they didn't have a nutrition sheet. I didn't have much time to order, I have stressed out and panicked so I just ordered a veggie Calzone. I had none of the garlic knots. SO when it comes, it would have looked amazing to any one else, but because I'm on my diet I felt bad. It was cut into 4ths and I only ate 1/4th. I asked for a box immediately. I ate another 1/4th when I got home, but it tasted terrible by then. I hated myself for about 3 days. I was so frustrated that night with everyone and myself. I didn't talk through out dinner, my sister thought I was being a bitch for not. And the entire time, all I wanted to do was go home and isolate myself.
Needless to say, it was a terrible evening.

I start school tomorrow, which I was excited for until today. I'm excited for this year but I've gotten so use to being by myself all summer, I have no idea how I will handle being in class all day. My dad wants to start working out after school every day starting tomorrow, but i might ask him to hold it off a week. I need to get over the 1st week of school. I want to feel comfortable in my routine.

Hopefully I have a collective summer haul post in a few weeks. I went shopping yesterday and bought 3 pairs of jeans (which is practically unheard of for me), a tank top, shirt, and a dress. Plus loads of other stuff I've gotten this summer like all my shoes and Revlon lip butters! And I have an order from Sephora coming in any day now. I'll probably do two separate hauls then.


Hope everyone is having a good week! In the comments below or on twitter or tumblr. Let me know what the most important items you need for school (besides actual school supplies).
Until next time.
Lillie x

Week 2

This feeling is crazy. I actually want to weigh myself everyday. Because i like the results. I currently weigh 225.8 pounds and I'm still going strong. I won't be working out as much as a I did this past week, and really until indoor track starts except on the weekends when I can go and use the Elliptical. Getting back into the gym was ridiculously amazing. You can not beat the feeling of doing something for YOURSELF. It is so nice to see progress. I've lost 7 pounds since July 30th, which is terribly exciting.

 Helpful tip: when eating out, ask for a nutrition sheet as your menu to help you order. I did this when I went to Olive Garden and was able to find a pasta for 310 calories, which is literally, the lowest calorie item they have. PLUS I substituted with whole wheat pasta and ordered a side of zucchini and squash. Also, it's really fun to play the guess how many calories are in what. Those little donuts things you can get as a Dessert at Olive Garden? 910 calories. Not even including the chocolate sauce which is another 210. I will never be eating those again in my life.

Other things going on in my life:

• Finished my summer assignments, I turn them in tomorrow
• Went to the Yard Crawl (huge yard sale thing) and didn't really find much, BUT I got a pair of practically new black low top converse for $5. SCORE.
• Visited my Aunt and Uncle and my Aunt gave me loads of glass for stained glass that I'm taking this semester.
• Made a really awesome crayon melt for my sister.

Insert shitty camera phone photo.

I have some other things that I might want to talk about in a blog post, but this really isn't the time.
So overall, I'm excited for my progress but I have such a long ways to go.
If there is someone who is currently trying to loose weight, please tell me in the comments, or on tumblr or even twitter. I'd love to give you encouragements and maybe we can swap reciepes.
Is that what healthy people do?
Lillie x

Day 2

Cleaning my room and trying on clothes. I officially have no jeans that fit me. My stomach had taken over. I fee like it's me against my body. I've done very well today. I had my Breakfast, and this veggie medley that my mom makes out of fresh vegetables in our garden with our homemade tomato sauce. I haven't been counting that into Livestrong, but I mean it's not a lot, little to none really. It's all extremely healthy. I'm avoiding sugar when possible. NO SWEETS. I mean, I know things are good in moderation, but I just don't want to get into the habit of eating sweets because when you eat them, you want more afterwards. So that cookie turns into five.
I just did 100 squats. Last time I did about a week ago, I literally couldn't walk for about 2 days. Hopefully, it won't be to bad, I return to the gym tomorrow. I'm kind of excited because I know I will be burning the hell out of some fat. I'm taking control of ma life, bitches.
This is frustrating though. It really is. You want quick results. Not saying I'm not patient enough to stick it out, but I just want things to happen now. To bad I have no adipose pills (Doctor Who reference)
In other news, I went to town and bought some more school supplies. I need to bust a move on my summer assignments, they are due the 13th. So, this means, I'm have to leave, to bust a move on some papers and comps! Wish me luck! :D
Ps. I have now added a widget to track my weight on my blog. It's directly from Livestrong, so when I update my weight lose, you'll see it!
Also: blogging is going to help me, I won't be blogging everyday, but I will be upadting at least once a week.
k bye

Week One

I am at a point right now, this very second, where there is nothing I want more is to be smaller. I currently weigh 231 pounds and I hate myself. I hate the way I look, I hate they way I feel, and I hate the way I can never find clothes. I look terrible. I can't even go shopping without having a break down when I get home, or even in the store. I'm stressed out and I'm tired of hating my life. I was suppose to  work out this summer. I did for two weeks then stopped. I could partially blame it on someone who was working out with us, but all in all: It was all my fault. So now, I'm on Livestrong.com with a goal of two pounds a week. This means I am allowed to eat 1269 calories per day. So far, I'm doing alright. I took a trip to West Virginia Wednesday through Friday, where I could not update. I did alright but I know having sweets killed me. So why am I writing all this? Because I have a goal. I want to weigh 180 pounds and be a size 12, or what ever size 180 pounds would let me fit into. Once track begins in November, I will be loosing more weigh and still sticking to the diet of 1269 calories a day. But I do not want to wait till November to start. So my goal is by February, which is in 7 months.
I am going to make this happen. I am going to have a hella successful track year, because I'm going to make it happen. I actually just found a inspirational tumblr for being fit, and I'm hella motivated.
I am ready.