Week IDGAF, I Think 10

Hey bitches! Well really, I think there is one bitch. Maybe this blog is jsut me talking to myself. YOLO.
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Anyway. I've been doing great. My New York Trip was splendid, expect a blog post sometime this month about it.
School has been shitty, but it's school, so honestly, what was I expecting to get? It's really just the work. I'm surrounded by a bunch of really great people but the work stresses me the hell out. I never have enough time.
My weight loss is going swell. I'm down now currently to 214.2, almost at my 20 pounds loss. I'm really happy with my progress. Before I went to New York I weighted 216 then I gained about 2 or 3 pounds because FOOD (btw: No regrets) So basically, I lost 4 pounds this week. AND I STILL GET TO EAT CHOCOLATE! I key thing about loosing weight that people need to remember is, don't deprive yourself. Just be mindful and conscience of what you are doing with your body. For example, I eat a chocolate bar that is 200 calories. I make up for it by adjusting how many calories I consume later or I make sure I work hard or do extra in my work outs to make up for it. You are distributing calories.

I've dealt with being over weight my entire life. I've gone through many times in my life where I hated myself and my image. Loosing this weight means the world to me. I am doing something for myself. I already feel better. Everyone around me can tell how much better I'm looking. It's already easier to move around. But this is only the beginning. My goal is still 170. I am still 44 pounds away from that goal. So that keeps me grounded but the fact that I've lost almost 20 pounds keeps me motivated. This week, find what keeps you grounded and motivated then write them down. Look back at it when you need that push.

Pictures and swatches are done for my upcoming ELF Haul, expect that in a week or two if not this week. Here is a little sneak peak :)

Best Wishes,
Lillie xo

Week 7!

Just to let you know, I didn't die while on a treadmill or anything. I've been lazy. And only lazy about posting blogs. In excited news: on the 18th, I will have officially been tracking my weight on Livestrong for a month, meaning that as of now, I have lost 16 pounds. My pants hardly fit in my ass area, stomach fat is hanging off it awkward ways, and I'm kind of loving it all. I still have to lose more weight but it's great start. I don't use Livestrong to calculate calories anymore. I just kind of wing it. Hopefully when I get a smarthphone, I'll use Livestrong all the time.

Enough with my weight loss, even though it's exciting, I get tired of talking about it all the time.

Exciting thing #1

I've been doing behind the wheel driving for school, and it's going very well. I actually drove around town yesterday for a couple hours. It was great and that says a lot because my mom freaks out when other people are driving. She would damn near scream when I would be getting to close to the white line, and I hated that because I would think it was something bigger. Overall, it was a good experience.

Exciting thing #2

Yesterday was full of great things. I went to my favorite vegetarian restaurant, ate my favorite vegan cookie, drove, bought a jar of local honey, and went to this church auction thing to benefit this local retirement community. Some of the pieces they auctioned off where down right gorgeous. But in the large room next to the auction, the church set up a resale shop. I ended up getting some awesome vintage pieces. A pair of earrings, a bow pin (not vintage), and beautiful head scarf with roses, and a vintage Coach satchel. I loved it when I picked it up, but when my mom was telling me it was leather, I was kind of put off to buy it. Feeling bad, my mom looked inside of it and saw that it was coach. Stamped and everything with its own serial number. I love it because it is such a perfect size. I can fit loads of things in it, even my kindle! And to think I was planning on studding the front with circle brass studs. Not anymore.

Exciting thing #3

                Best for last.

                I will be going to New York for my birthday. I am literally SCREAMING. They told me a week or two ago and it’s amazing. We will leave at 1pm on the 27^th so I get all of Friday, Saturday, and a little bit of Sunday morning. I’ve been making a list of things I want to do but there are just some many places and it’s hard to make an entire list. I’m dying for some good thrift stores. So we will see. I’ll have a huge post full of pictures and things to show from that trip.

School has been going alright. I love yearbook. Apush is just pointless. And I feel like I’m understanding math. A great thing about being part of yearbook is that I get to be involved in everything in school. At our school, we have a wall. That we paint. I went to take pictures and it was great. I got to hang out with a bunch of great people, got a little messy, and took some hella fabulous pictures. I can be a little antisocial at times because I’ve felt that I don’t have a lot of close friends, but this year, I’m going to make an effort to be close to these people who were in my class. We are already good friends and love each other. But I want to have the friendship where I can go to their house and hangout whenever, and they can do the same with me. That kind of relationship with people would be amazing.

      Expect a New York post within a few weeks after I go. I’ll try to be more regular with my posting. And maybe I can even do a review or two. Who really knows where I’m taking this blog. It’s a lot of fun to do though.

I’m still trying to figure out an outro

Lillie

Week 3

It's been a alright week. I've had some days where I didn't eat the best, but I have not gained any weight (Thank God) I've really tired to keep away from carbs and cheese. So let me tell you a story.
We went out to eat because my sister is moving for a year to Illinois and she decided to eat at this Italian place. It's a local place, so they didn't have a nutrition sheet. I didn't have much time to order, I have stressed out and panicked so I just ordered a veggie Calzone. I had none of the garlic knots. SO when it comes, it would have looked amazing to any one else, but because I'm on my diet I felt bad. It was cut into 4ths and I only ate 1/4th. I asked for a box immediately. I ate another 1/4th when I got home, but it tasted terrible by then. I hated myself for about 3 days. I was so frustrated that night with everyone and myself. I didn't talk through out dinner, my sister thought I was being a bitch for not. And the entire time, all I wanted to do was go home and isolate myself.
Needless to say, it was a terrible evening.

I start school tomorrow, which I was excited for until today. I'm excited for this year but I've gotten so use to being by myself all summer, I have no idea how I will handle being in class all day. My dad wants to start working out after school every day starting tomorrow, but i might ask him to hold it off a week. I need to get over the 1st week of school. I want to feel comfortable in my routine.

Hopefully I have a collective summer haul post in a few weeks. I went shopping yesterday and bought 3 pairs of jeans (which is practically unheard of for me), a tank top, shirt, and a dress. Plus loads of other stuff I've gotten this summer like all my shoes and Revlon lip butters! And I have an order from Sephora coming in any day now. I'll probably do two separate hauls then.


Hope everyone is having a good week! In the comments below or on twitter or tumblr. Let me know what the most important items you need for school (besides actual school supplies).
Until next time.
Lillie x

Day 8

I had a bad day.
I went over my calories on Livestrong.com
I ate out.
And i didn't work out.

I am full, and though the food was amazing, I feel ashamed. But I'm not going to wallow in this. I had a bad day, so what. I can not afford to have these sort of days.

So I did alright this morning, actually. Light English muffin with free range egg white with nuts and peach. But the nuts were high in calories, and I had two serving throughout the day. Come lunch time, I didn't really eat much. I had a serving of mexican shredded cheese, a serving of club crackers, an apple, and half a serving of tostitos scoops. I couldn't find anything to eat, and it didn't feel bad at the time. When I plugged in everything in Livestrong, I realized that I had made some bad decisions.  Come 7:30 and I'm very hungry. I was in town with my dad and we ended up going to a mexican place we love. I got veggie fajitas, with veggie refried beans, and some rice. It tasted amazing. But i know I wasn't doing the right thing. So you know? I screwed up. But I just have to move on, look back on this day and use it as an example. Remember that day when you went over? And you felt so bad you wrote a blog post about it?

Tomorrow is a new day and it will be ok.
I'm actually helping out with Freshman orientation ALL DAY. SO lots of running around. I won't be eating a lot of lunch, so it will be great. And when I get home, I'll be too tired to eat! Just kidding, that is not healthy. I'll drink loads of water and I'll have a good time.

If you had a bad food day or you remember one you had, post it in the comments. I'd love to hear about it!

Till next time
Lillie x

Week 2

This feeling is crazy. I actually want to weigh myself everyday. Because i like the results. I currently weigh 225.8 pounds and I'm still going strong. I won't be working out as much as a I did this past week, and really until indoor track starts except on the weekends when I can go and use the Elliptical. Getting back into the gym was ridiculously amazing. You can not beat the feeling of doing something for YOURSELF. It is so nice to see progress. I've lost 7 pounds since July 30th, which is terribly exciting.

 Helpful tip: when eating out, ask for a nutrition sheet as your menu to help you order. I did this when I went to Olive Garden and was able to find a pasta for 310 calories, which is literally, the lowest calorie item they have. PLUS I substituted with whole wheat pasta and ordered a side of zucchini and squash. Also, it's really fun to play the guess how many calories are in what. Those little donuts things you can get as a Dessert at Olive Garden? 910 calories. Not even including the chocolate sauce which is another 210. I will never be eating those again in my life.

Other things going on in my life:

• Finished my summer assignments, I turn them in tomorrow
• Went to the Yard Crawl (huge yard sale thing) and didn't really find much, BUT I got a pair of practically new black low top converse for $5. SCORE.
• Visited my Aunt and Uncle and my Aunt gave me loads of glass for stained glass that I'm taking this semester.
• Made a really awesome crayon melt for my sister.

Insert shitty camera phone photo.

I have some other things that I might want to talk about in a blog post, but this really isn't the time.
So overall, I'm excited for my progress but I have such a long ways to go.
If there is someone who is currently trying to loose weight, please tell me in the comments, or on tumblr or even twitter. I'd love to give you encouragements and maybe we can swap reciepes.
Is that what healthy people do?
Lillie x

Day 2

Cleaning my room and trying on clothes. I officially have no jeans that fit me. My stomach had taken over. I fee like it's me against my body. I've done very well today. I had my Breakfast, and this veggie medley that my mom makes out of fresh vegetables in our garden with our homemade tomato sauce. I haven't been counting that into Livestrong, but I mean it's not a lot, little to none really. It's all extremely healthy. I'm avoiding sugar when possible. NO SWEETS. I mean, I know things are good in moderation, but I just don't want to get into the habit of eating sweets because when you eat them, you want more afterwards. So that cookie turns into five.
I just did 100 squats. Last time I did about a week ago, I literally couldn't walk for about 2 days. Hopefully, it won't be to bad, I return to the gym tomorrow. I'm kind of excited because I know I will be burning the hell out of some fat. I'm taking control of ma life, bitches.
This is frustrating though. It really is. You want quick results. Not saying I'm not patient enough to stick it out, but I just want things to happen now. To bad I have no adipose pills (Doctor Who reference)
In other news, I went to town and bought some more school supplies. I need to bust a move on my summer assignments, they are due the 13th. So, this means, I'm have to leave, to bust a move on some papers and comps! Wish me luck! :D
Ps. I have now added a widget to track my weight on my blog. It's directly from Livestrong, so when I update my weight lose, you'll see it!
Also: blogging is going to help me, I won't be blogging everyday, but I will be upadting at least once a week.
k bye