Day 8

I had a bad day.
I went over my calories on Livestrong.com
I ate out.
And i didn't work out.

I am full, and though the food was amazing, I feel ashamed. But I'm not going to wallow in this. I had a bad day, so what. I can not afford to have these sort of days.

So I did alright this morning, actually. Light English muffin with free range egg white with nuts and peach. But the nuts were high in calories, and I had two serving throughout the day. Come lunch time, I didn't really eat much. I had a serving of mexican shredded cheese, a serving of club crackers, an apple, and half a serving of tostitos scoops. I couldn't find anything to eat, and it didn't feel bad at the time. When I plugged in everything in Livestrong, I realized that I had made some bad decisions.  Come 7:30 and I'm very hungry. I was in town with my dad and we ended up going to a mexican place we love. I got veggie fajitas, with veggie refried beans, and some rice. It tasted amazing. But i know I wasn't doing the right thing. So you know? I screwed up. But I just have to move on, look back on this day and use it as an example. Remember that day when you went over? And you felt so bad you wrote a blog post about it?

Tomorrow is a new day and it will be ok.
I'm actually helping out with Freshman orientation ALL DAY. SO lots of running around. I won't be eating a lot of lunch, so it will be great. And when I get home, I'll be too tired to eat! Just kidding, that is not healthy. I'll drink loads of water and I'll have a good time.

If you had a bad food day or you remember one you had, post it in the comments. I'd love to hear about it!

Till next time
Lillie x

Week 2

This feeling is crazy. I actually want to weigh myself everyday. Because i like the results. I currently weigh 225.8 pounds and I'm still going strong. I won't be working out as much as a I did this past week, and really until indoor track starts except on the weekends when I can go and use the Elliptical. Getting back into the gym was ridiculously amazing. You can not beat the feeling of doing something for YOURSELF. It is so nice to see progress. I've lost 7 pounds since July 30th, which is terribly exciting.

 Helpful tip: when eating out, ask for a nutrition sheet as your menu to help you order. I did this when I went to Olive Garden and was able to find a pasta for 310 calories, which is literally, the lowest calorie item they have. PLUS I substituted with whole wheat pasta and ordered a side of zucchini and squash. Also, it's really fun to play the guess how many calories are in what. Those little donuts things you can get as a Dessert at Olive Garden? 910 calories. Not even including the chocolate sauce which is another 210. I will never be eating those again in my life.

Other things going on in my life:

• Finished my summer assignments, I turn them in tomorrow
• Went to the Yard Crawl (huge yard sale thing) and didn't really find much, BUT I got a pair of practically new black low top converse for $5. SCORE.
• Visited my Aunt and Uncle and my Aunt gave me loads of glass for stained glass that I'm taking this semester.
• Made a really awesome crayon melt for my sister.

Insert shitty camera phone photo.

I have some other things that I might want to talk about in a blog post, but this really isn't the time.
So overall, I'm excited for my progress but I have such a long ways to go.
If there is someone who is currently trying to loose weight, please tell me in the comments, or on tumblr or even twitter. I'd love to give you encouragements and maybe we can swap reciepes.
Is that what healthy people do?
Lillie x

Day 2

Cleaning my room and trying on clothes. I officially have no jeans that fit me. My stomach had taken over. I fee like it's me against my body. I've done very well today. I had my Breakfast, and this veggie medley that my mom makes out of fresh vegetables in our garden with our homemade tomato sauce. I haven't been counting that into Livestrong, but I mean it's not a lot, little to none really. It's all extremely healthy. I'm avoiding sugar when possible. NO SWEETS. I mean, I know things are good in moderation, but I just don't want to get into the habit of eating sweets because when you eat them, you want more afterwards. So that cookie turns into five.
I just did 100 squats. Last time I did about a week ago, I literally couldn't walk for about 2 days. Hopefully, it won't be to bad, I return to the gym tomorrow. I'm kind of excited because I know I will be burning the hell out of some fat. I'm taking control of ma life, bitches.
This is frustrating though. It really is. You want quick results. Not saying I'm not patient enough to stick it out, but I just want things to happen now. To bad I have no adipose pills (Doctor Who reference)
In other news, I went to town and bought some more school supplies. I need to bust a move on my summer assignments, they are due the 13th. So, this means, I'm have to leave, to bust a move on some papers and comps! Wish me luck! :D
Ps. I have now added a widget to track my weight on my blog. It's directly from Livestrong, so when I update my weight lose, you'll see it!
Also: blogging is going to help me, I won't be blogging everyday, but I will be upadting at least once a week.
k bye

Week One

I am at a point right now, this very second, where there is nothing I want more is to be smaller. I currently weigh 231 pounds and I hate myself. I hate the way I look, I hate they way I feel, and I hate the way I can never find clothes. I look terrible. I can't even go shopping without having a break down when I get home, or even in the store. I'm stressed out and I'm tired of hating my life. I was suppose to  work out this summer. I did for two weeks then stopped. I could partially blame it on someone who was working out with us, but all in all: It was all my fault. So now, I'm on Livestrong.com with a goal of two pounds a week. This means I am allowed to eat 1269 calories per day. So far, I'm doing alright. I took a trip to West Virginia Wednesday through Friday, where I could not update. I did alright but I know having sweets killed me. So why am I writing all this? Because I have a goal. I want to weigh 180 pounds and be a size 12, or what ever size 180 pounds would let me fit into. Once track begins in November, I will be loosing more weigh and still sticking to the diet of 1269 calories a day. But I do not want to wait till November to start. So my goal is by February, which is in 7 months.
I am going to make this happen. I am going to have a hella successful track year, because I'm going to make it happen. I actually just found a inspirational tumblr for being fit, and I'm hella motivated.
I am ready.

The 7 year blog post

Tumblr followers:91
Episodes of Doctor Who watched:41 (?)
Times driven: 2
Currently reading: Summer ass assignment (Cold Sassy Tree)



I really don't have some sassy intro for this. But this is a newflash/update/weather alert.

Every time I walk down stairs, I regret it. Because my room is perfectly chill and nice and everything a comfortable living space should be in the summer. The down stairs, is not.

This blog entry has taken my about 3 days to complete. This is day 3.
I thought it would be worth mentioning that a comment of my was the top comment on a video. This has never happened.

 

Needless to say, this was a damn ass highlight in my day. 

So as I thought about this and as mydamnchannel liked the post I made on tumblr, I wanted to talk about my presence on the internet.

I've been around for awhile. I've gone through different Youtube channels, so saying that I joined in 2010 is inaccurate. 2007 would probably be around the time. But I've had subscriptions and people I've watched forever. And like I've said in a previous blog, I've never made videos. and so my interaction with these amazing people has been limited. And it just hurts even more when I see vidcon videos and think "That honestly, could be me." I crave friendship like the ones people have on youtube with other youtubers. I want to be apart of a community. Tumblr, especially recently, has given me that little bit of community that I wanted. But I still want to be part of this Youtube community that I have observed from afar for so many years. So I wanted to make a list of things when I have interacted with internet.

after procrastinating for ever, and watching a Joseph Birdsong live show, I decided this is creepy as hell.

I have yearbook camp in a week, so yeah, get to plan the yearbook! I'm not one of the editors this year, but I plan to be senior year. It will be a fun few days, the girl that will be a co editor is really awesome so it will be cool to hang out with her

. But this crazy ass thing is going on. We are meeting the new yearbook teacher AT CAMP. WE have no idea who it is, so i guess we just meet them there? Hell if I know. I guess we will figure it out!

Can't wait to do a recap of yearbook, then I have friday, THEN I'm at the beach for a week. And i think I don't have internet. Just speculating. I have internet at camp, but non at the beach. 

I've gained a lot of new followers on tumblrs. It's really great. God, people are so cool.

-Lillie

#Trending: Denim

I've really neglected this blog as a beauty and fashion blog. So, in the spirit of the fourth of July or some shit, I will give you an Outfit Of The Day and my comments on ever growing, never dying trend :Denim.

So I flip through the pages of my seventeen magazine and I feel like all I'm seeing is Denim and jeans and all that JAZZ! I felt this trend coming a long time ago, so I feel a bit accomplished as a fashion predictor. ;D But the denim fad has never faded. Jeans are classic, and a staple in a wardrobe. The funny thing is that there is always a love hate relationship with a pair of jeans. Jeans can make you hate yourself when trying them on. And as a bigger girl, jean shopping can be, is hell. It's terrible to try to find something that fits my ass and my thighs. PLUS, I like wearing skinny jeans because any other cut around the ankle makes my leg look bigger, and that is not the look I'm going for.

The thing about Denim, it comes in everything. I personally believe that a girl needs a good jean jacket in their wardrobe. It pairs great with any skirt to complete a look. I've seen many amazing jean jackets DIY'd. Another thing that has gotten the hipsters busting out their studs and bleach are shorts. Oh my gawd, Denim ass shorts. I've seen them studded, dyed, bleached, torn, ripped, ombred, and painted. And it is a interesting idea. You are really able to play with something that is so basic and make it a major statement piece. So if you have not seen enough of these DIY'd jean shorts, behold:

And the link to the set on Polyvore

Have you ever became so bored that you felt it necessary to take a pair of shoes the glue scrap denim on them with Elmers glue? Darling, I've been there. And I am over all happy with the outcome. I think they look nice and it actually helped the shoes become sturdier, as they are freaking old. I actually spray painted these shoes silver for homecoming. They turned out great then. I have terribly wide feet and finding a shoe that will fit me is a miracle. My sister had these shoes and since they were stretched out, they fit my feet alright, besides being a size 9 when I'm an 8. But the glue actually helped the become

more solid, therefor fitting me feet.

This is the outfit I planned.
Shirt: Old Navy
Shorts: hand me down from sisters friend, cut to make shorts
Shoes: Explained
Purse: Goodwill

This was my first time try at an outfit of the day. Honestly, I had set up this outfit two days ago and I loved it! This was the first time I wore my DIY's to hell denim shoes. They look like a hot mess close up, but farther away, they look really nice :)



 

 

 Look who is rocking the hell out of that ridiculous farmers tan. Thank you track.

Dancing it out.

Overall, this was very fun. It actually gave me a lot of confidence. I hardly take pictures of myself. I'm really happy with how this turned out.
Comments and messages are always welcome. My info on how to contact me will be to the right of the screen. So if you wanted to message me on tumblr, go for it.
I'll have an update post up tomorrow talking about what I've reading and what I'm doing this july
-Lillie

boop.

Hiya. So, I wasn't liking the title above on my blog so I changed it to something random. It said, Most likely wearing pants

Just popping in for an update.
Tumblr followers: 82
Twitter Followers: 39
Episodes of Doctor Who watched: 28
Times driven: 2

So. I had this idea today.
 Basically, everyone I love was at vidcon and the people I love are friends with other people I love. For example, HayleyGHoover hanging out with DK1. I've been on YouTube for a long time now, but I've never made a video. (Actually a lie, I've made them but then I deleted them, stupid as hell they were) BUT The only way I interact with these awesome people is through Tumblr and Twitter. I need to make videos if I want friends. So a couple days ago, last Thursday I believe, I had this amazing idea. I'm going to vlog my entire senior year. The things is, I'm not an up coming Senior. I'm going to be a junior. So i have to wait a year. Which kind of sucks. But it will be worth the wait. I will get to vlog going to colleges, Prom, Graduation, my acceptance letter, state track meet, being the editor of the yearbook. It will be a huge year and it will would be great to have a reference to it. And maybe I could help people going into their last year of High School. I'm not expecting to get famous or some shit. But having videos and an interesting video project will give my confidence to readch out to people to become friends. SOOOOO. I am making a goal here and now. I WILL GO TO 2014 VIDCON. I SWEAR ON SHERLOCK'S SCARF.
shit just got real.

I've been procrastinating my summer assignments. I'm working on it. It will be done in a timely manner.

My room is getting to point of clean.

Yearbook camp in 15 days! Thne the beach! THEN THE OLYMPICS. gawd
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I adore the Olympics. I love watching Track and Field and Gymnastics. Swimming is good too.
I think David Tennant should have been the one running with the torch.
Nerd problems?
 -Lillie